Really?

Do you realize how much stress you gave me for all this time? I hate you, i really do. I just hope you would die. I would not sad, i would not mourn. I just would be glad.
I hate you when you just start yelling at me for no reason. Do you know how i feel? Do you know that i would break? Do you even think about me? Do you even love me like you love her?
I am not a super human. I have weak body and because of that my feelings are fragile. I always thinking what you said to me. All that yelling that made me frustrated. 
Since i was a child everyone always treat me different. Why would they? And when i hoping something different from you, you are not. The fact is, you are the worst from all of them.
I gave my shoulder to them, because i know how i felt when i don't have any shoulder to cry on.
They had me, but who i have?
Whose shoulder i should cry on?
No one ever know how I felt about my self. When i start cutting because i don't have anyone to run to. When I start thinking of any suicidal way. When I start thinking about them, who are leaving me here. When I thinking about everyone that I never had. Moment that I missing.
I don't know how many time I thinking to ruin my self. To end my self.
No one even know about me.
They just thought they know.


And I cried when my friend said this to me...