Ladies

Are we still friends? I don't know how i should put this, but our short time together really mean the world for me...Why are we like this? What's making us separating like we never know each other like this? Where are the old us? I miss it. I miss it very much.

Sometimes i just want us to be sitting in front of class A sharing about everything just like we used to be. Sometimes i just stare at you guys but i don't have any guts to be near you. What do i did wrong? I miss you all. I miss us.

My Life

Father, I am yours...
My life is yours and my breath and my soul...
It is you who could decide what will happen to me
It is you to decide will i live or will you take me...
I am yours from the start and will always be
I just could hope you would give the best for me.

My Account

Well, I had this account on Pottermore, I don't know how to say this but I think I've insulted a couple of people and they just reported me...
Now I lost two of my accounts there, my original account and my banker accounts.
And to think that I've always chat at common room, the one who responsible for this is my fellow house mates.
I know that our house didn't famous of the bonding of our house mates... but to think that my fellow house mates that makes me loose it...
Well, I just had to use my friends account :)
And I won't talk to some of people there, just to be cautions :)

2 Tahun

Sekarang tanggal 29 Agustus. Iya, ini hari kamis.
Gimana coba aku harus nata perasaanku hari ini, 2 tahun yang lalu aku masih bisa ketawa bareng kamu, kak. Sebelum sorenya kamu pergi. Udah 2 tahun aku ngejalanin hidupku tanpa kakak. Iya. Aku tahu kok aku bisa hidup tanpa kakak, lihat aja 2 tahun ini aku masih hidup, kan? Tapi beda rasanya.
Kenapa sih kakak harus pergi? Nggak sayang lagi? Iya?
I had enough of mourning these last 2 years. And I will live my life forward without this sadness of my heart. Yes. I am devastated when hearing that news about you 2 years ago. But I had lived my life just fine. This throttle feeling is beginning to depleted. I am infatuated by you existence and I had enough of condemning this situation.
I am ignited by you and I am hardly living.
I am having enough of mourning but I will always love you nevertheless.

Payphone

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media
Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next
button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG
NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW
SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Everyone tagged has to do the
same thing.
5. Have Fun!
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Mind

Have you ever think that you cared so much about someone that you afraid that that someone isn't care about you in the same amount? Well, I believe that everybody does...
What we rarely think that someone out there that really care about us but we didn't thought a single thing about them.
I've been thinking, am I always fair to everyone that I know. Had I ever been feel annoyed to someone that want to be close with me?
Not that  I'm trying to be air headed, but I am afraid that I'm treating someone in the way that I don't wanted to be treated.
What if I always selfish about my thought and awareness about being unwanted that I'm treating other person like that too.
It is an unpleasant feelings to be left out and I just don't want to be the one who make others feel that way.

Pergi Bersama Angin

Aku mendengar suara tawa dan canda dari bangku didepanku. Dua sahabatku yang selama ini selalu bersama. Kualihkan perhatianku dari novel yang sedang kubaca dan memperhatikan mereka dengan seksama. Canda dan tawa yang selama ini sulit kuukir pada bibir mereka, dengan mudahnya terlontar saat aku tidak terlibat.

Kadang aku berfikir, pantaskah aku berharap segala yang pernah ku pinta, karena tak jua pun ku yakin akan segala pantasku.

Kadang ku berfikir seberapakah nilaiku pada mereka.

Kesalkah mereka akan ucapan demi ucapan yang telah kulontarkan. Kusadar aku bukanlah sahabat terbaik.

Tak ingin ku lepas butiran pasir dalam genggamanku, sudah lelah akan segala angin yang mencuri bahagiaku.

Apakah terlalu besar pintaku,
serakahkah diriku jika kuharap akan bahagia mereka karena diriku?

Kusadar bahwa hadirku hanyalah pelengkap... Tiada hal yang berarti akan hadirku.

Salahkah saat ingin ku salur bahagia dengan mereka yang tercinta, bahkan ketika tak diinginkan pada mereka.

Tak sadarkah mereka rinduku tak terbendung. Ingin jua ku tertawa bersama, tak hanya tersenyum saat tertinggal.

Bahkan saat kutinggalkan bangkuku mereka hanya tersenyum tanpa berucap, hanya melanjutkan canda indah mereka.

Tetes duka yang tersia tak kan pernah di hiraukan, rinduku telah pergi bersama angin.